CLICK HERE FOR THOUSANDS OF FREE BLOGGER TEMPLATES »

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Decisions, Decisions

I have always and forever HATED making decisions. I can be opinionated, bossy, obnoxious, and gassy, but regardless, big decisions are always hard. We are in the midst of a HUGE, MIND-BLOWING decision that has me all wrapped up in turmoil and uncertainty. (OK, I’m dramatic, but it’s still a big decision).

Jake lost his job several months ago. It has been a trial for us, unlike anything we’ve been through before, but we know beyond a shadow of a doubt that we have looked on from a power greater than our own. Even on the day he was laid off, I never felt stressed because a peace came over both of us - that we would somehow be OK. It was only the week after he lost his job that we found out we were pregnant. It has been confusing to think that we felt so strongly we were to come to Boise, for Jake’s job specifically, only to lose it and then be blessed with something we always wanted but not know how to take care of the future…. again we somehow felt we’d be OK.

Jake was wonderful to bounce back and applied at hundreds of places, from Home Depot to selling cell phones. I have been amazed at his attitude during this process. I also know I have been fortunate to have a good job, but it pays nowhere near enough to support our family, including an expensive, diaper-wearing miracle that will soon join us.
A few weeks ago Jake got a job painting – definitely not the dream but something he was willing to do to get money in and to make ends meet for our family. That same week we heard from a web design company down in Orem, Utah that he’d applied to more than a month ago. We had decided after he applied that we should stop looking for jobs in Utah because it is just not good timing…. We had kind of written it off.
Jake still did several phone interviews with this company and not surprisingly, because he is FABULOUS, they loved him. They met with us last week when we were down for Easter to offer Jake a position. It is a good offer which would enable us, if we’re careful, to be able to have me stay home with Piddley.

Here’s the problem: our wonderful house. We had every intention of being in Boise permanently and bought our house because the buyers market truly was awesome. We have called our realtor back and even though we got our house for an amazing deal, the market up here is still horrible to sell and there’s no way we could sell it. Yeah. Crap. It also means having to change insurance/doctors/hospitals for my big old preggo self. It means leaving so many good friends and familiarity that we have made, and probably moving into a 1 bedroom basement apartment.

Pros: Jake would be HAPPY in his job (they have rock band parties every week, come on!) and we would be closer to family (Becca is cringing).

We have been fasting and praying and thinking hard. What do we do?

9 comments:

The Wettstein Family said...

Aw Ev! Such a hard decision. I will be praying for you! Could you maybe rent out your house for a little while? I know it's hard when it's long distance, but maybe you have a friend in the ward that could help you keep an eye on it until you can sell it. Having a kid takes up so much time, and I couldn't imagine having to work while doing it. Having the job security moving to Utah would provide for you would give you so much peace of mind. Would the company offer an insurance plan? You could apply for medicaid here. I think your allowable assets double if you're pregnant, so it's easier to get on it. Anyway, you have probably already thought of all these things. So, here's one more: I AM IN UTAH!!!

Alison said...

Totally do it. You can live in our basement :) Don't let selling your house detour you from being able to stay at home with your baby and a dream job for your husband. And you'll be closer to me which should make the decision for you right there :) In all seriousness it sounds like a great opportunity for your family. Good
Luck!

Laura said...

I hate big decisions too! But I am so excited for you to have a baby. When I was pregnant with Sarah, we had a lot of uncertainties too. Brett had an internship, but no insurance so I would have to keep working. But we did a WHOLE lot of praying and followed what we thought the Lord was telling us to do. Within a matter of a few months, so many things fell into place for us that it was without a doubt the Lord's doing. Just keep on praying, and do whatever you feel like you are being prompted to do. Things will work out, even if you have no idea how yet!

Jackie said...

Oh Ev, what a tough decision. I know you probably are not looking for advice, but I have a few thoughts anyway. :)

First off, you will be fine with whatever choice you make. Heavenly Father is watching over you and will bless you wherever you choose to be. So you just need to decide what will make both of you the happiest in the long run. I think that sounds great to have a stable job that he would enjoy more that would allow you to stay at home with your baby. Of course the house thing is just devastating. Would you be able to rent it & then sell it later when the market gets better? I know here in Utah county there are a lot of people struggling to sell so if you look hard enough you might even be able to find a house to rent for a really good deal. Even if not, an apartment isn't ideal, but it would work. We lived in an apartment with 2 kids for years and I think it made us closer as a family to have to sacrifice. Of course, not ideal, but all that matters is that you are together as a family and that you are happy. Good luck & I'll keep you in my prayers.

Julie M. said...

ARgh! Don't you hate decisions? I think if you could rent it, it would be great! I'm sure someone would watch it for you? I know the Lord is watching out for you and won't let you make a bad choice! The job sounds awesome, I'd go for it! Best of luck!!

Miss Heather said...

I know it's a tough decision... but seriously, the opportunity to stay home with your cute baby is SO much greater than a nice house. Seriously. Rent it out for a while. I'm sure you will work it out.

Kim said...

Wow I don't envy you one bit, but I am with everyone else, I would live in a one bedroom shack if it ment I could stay at home with my babies. There is just so much junk that goes on in daycare. My two older kids were in daycare for 3 years and I totally feel like I miss out on so much. Good luck!

Catherine said...

Wow that is a tough decision! And such a cute house!! But if you live in Utah I might actually be able to visit you occasionally! I know, not helping.......

Jill Denham said...

When we had to rent our home, we used militarybyowner.com It is a great site that military and non-military people use to find homes for rent/sale. There is a Military Post there in Boise that would be an option to use to draw potential tenants to your home. I can also help by sending a copy of our lease to you to get some ideas if you need. We will be praying for you, we love you!!